BEA Day 2: Meeting Chuck Palahniuk

3:30 p.m. – Chuck Palahniuk. Table 2. At 2:40 p.m., I made my way to the Random House booth at BEA so I could meet one of my favorite authors and get a signed copy of his book, Damned. After battling a small mob and evading some cranky line-makers, I found myself number 30 or 40 in line. It was great, I was guaranteed a book. But then I started eavesdropping.

“So what are you going to say to him?” the young woman in front me asked her friend.

“I don’t know, I was thinking of telling him how after I read his book I wanted to purposely crash my car.”

“I think he’d appreciate that.”

What? What have I read of his? I’ve only seen Fight Club. Truth is, he had me at Stranger than Fiction, his collection of non-fiction essays. I had to read it for my first creative non-fiction writing class at UCSB, and I have had mad respect for him ever since. I thought about it while in line. Bits of stories came back to me…dressing up in dog costumes in Seattle, monster truck rally…but I couldn’t think of how to bring any of this up. I was feeling shy, my hands began to sweat. I didn’t have any trouble yesterday talking to authors, asking them questions. But now I was star-struck. Years of battling my shyness melted away when I approached Chuck Palahniuk.

“So what brings you here?” He smiled.

“My love of books.” Crap, that was definitely not original. I wanted to tell him he inspired me, that I wished my writing could bear some semblance to his. But this was the best I could come up with?

“Um, I also blog. And I’m an NYU student in the publishing program.” Lame. How many writers would really care about that?

But, he looks exactly like his author photos, and he talks the way he writes, at least what he wrote about in Stranger Than Fiction.

I watched him write in my book. “Sorry, I’m nervous and don’t know what to say.” Argh.

“I get nervous all the time.” He closed the book. “I don’t always know what to say, so letting you talk takes the pressure off of me.”

He put his arm around me and we posed for a picture. “Well, we both made it.”

I think I can relate to him. I can’t talk the way I can write. I often mumble, slur, or end my sentences halfway with an “uhhhh.” At least when I write, I have time to think about what I’m saying. I can go back and edit, or even while typing I have a longer time to think about my words. There’s this image that all writers, and aspiring writers, have a way with words. I completely disagree. Sure, many writers are gifted, eloquent speakers as well, but personally I think the reason most of us get into writing is because it’s the only way we can effectively communicate our thoughts. I can’t give speeches for shit. Some days I can barely have a conversation.

And from what I know about Chuck Palahniuk, maybe he’s the same way too. Or at least I’d like to think so, so I can believe he understood by my sweaty hands and twisted tongue and lack of words was, I really admire you. You are one of my favorite writers, and I can’t believe I was lucky enough to meet you one day. Maybe someday I’ll be an established editor and we will meet again, have a real conversation. In the meantime, I’ll sit back and enjoy my signed copy of Damned.

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4 thoughts on “BEA Day 2: Meeting Chuck Palahniuk

  1. My own conversation with Chuck Palahniuk at BEA Expo America related to my subconscious fear of Pool drains due to “Guts” I’m afraid some uncontrollable urge of mine will cause me to do something rather dangerous. As a result, he actually wrote “Justin who fears pool drains,” when signing my books. Anyways, if you haven’t already, you should totally check out his book “Haunted,” which basically is his best book. I always have the problem of senselessly rambling when with authors.

    The group waiting for his signing were definitely fun. We stayed put even when Random House informed us not to line up too early. Most of us had our sights set on the “Chuck Palahniuk” signing. Without it, our BEA experience would feel a tad bit incomplete.

    Enjoy those Red hot Chili Peppers that you got with the book!

    • Thank you for sharing! I feel much better now!

      I intend to plant my seeds this weekend 🙂 And I will definitely check out “Haunted.”

      Did they threaten to move you to the back of the line when you lined up early? I pretended to be really interested in some maps for about 15 minutes, and then I slid into the mob of people already waiting 🙂

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